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"I'm full." My mom had just fixed me strawberry shortcake. I ate two bites and felt ready to vomit.
"Gwen, how high is your blood sugar? Have you been taking your insulin?"
"Not really. Kind of..." I admitted.
"You will be in the hospital when Claire comes if you don't stop."
That scared me. So I ate and ate. When I woke up my blood sugar was "HI" meaning over 600. I decided I would take 18u of Lantus and 12 of Novalog. Because I have to stop this. "No bingeing, no purging."
I went out with my friend Autumn yesterday. It was so good to see her. She doesn't judge me. Between her and her boyfriend... They are the two friends I have left in town. And I can talk to her. We agreed we need to hang out more. Unfortunately she is moving soon, and so is Jared. How I am going to miss them.
Tali is coming this weekend. So are my relatives at the same time. I am excited for Tali, scared to see the relatives... It will be a nagging week with them here.

11:55 AM - Wednesday, Jun. 15, 2005
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