But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Selfish Girl I finally broke down last night as I sat there cleaning my room. Tears began to pour down my face for no apparent reason, but for every reason. I cried for two hours. Because I hate what I have become. I hate that I don't have a single memory about food that isn't obsessive or disordered except one. I wailed, "I don't want to die this way," As tears streamed down my face. My mom tried to comfort me but it just all seemed wrong. Nothing could make me feel better. Eventually I stopped and ate myself to sleep in front of SpongeBob with about four boxes of cookies and yogurt covered pretzels. 10:14 AM - Tuesday, Jun. 14, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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