But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast.

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Euphoric

I still can't believe I'm here, I'm happy, I'm healthy.
I'm happy that I'm healthy... Could I say that before? Every day I learn to accept my body more. In fact, I'm grateful for it, even if it is defective.
I'm always so happy lately. I hate going to bed because I miss out on the world. Gone are the days of popping sleeping pills, bingeing, purging...
Gone are the days of escape. I start school in two weeks and I'm excited. I have energy. I can think.
Its all so surreal. I ate pizza tonight. I ate Olive Garden pizza. When I was full I stopped. I gave the rest to a homeless man.
A wise man on the pier once said if we all shared the food we had no one would go hungry. I had given him a taco, chips, and salsa. He fed the chips to the birds. He took the tortilla I was going to throw away and fed it to a dog.
It goes along with the teachings of Jesus but until I saw that I didn't think about it.
We all need something that another has.

2:03 AM - Wednesday, Feb. 01, 2006
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