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Me & Jewlz & Rambles

I love the beach. I am so glad I live here.

In other news Kyle is a bit irritated with me, to say the least. I can't get out of this cycle of sleeping during the day and staying up all night. I lay in bed until 4:45am, then finally got up. I want to be awake, to do things, but I get so tired around ten in the morning... I stopped taking my Lexapro about a week ago. I ran out and with no psychiatrist to refill it there wasn't a whole lot I could do. I can't tell if its me or the meds. I'm taking more things to heart, little things... And I'm scared to do much, feel ugly, fat, worthless. Mainly worthless, because thats what I am. I do nothing except take up space, eat, sleep... I want school to start, but I don't. I really need to wake up early on Tuesday to go speak to someone in admissions, financial aid...etc... Its not hard. Why do I make it so?

4:55 AM - Sunday, Jan. 15, 2006
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