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Happy :)

I finally dragged myself out of bed at noon. Sigh... What a difficult life. (Note the sarcasm) I did, however, wake up for breakfast earlier, making sure to get in all my exchanges, take my insulin, etc...
My blood sugars are very good. My meter says the average is 115. Its rare that I have a blood sugar over 200. If anything, I tend to drop low. I am proud of this. I hate having my diabetes out of control. It was a part of my eating disorder that I could not control, a last resort, something I was terribly ashamed of, something that made me weak, insane, and drove me to the edge of suicide.
Ali spent the night last night. Kyle and Ali both woke me for breakfast, lying on each side of the bed of me, coaxing me to get out of bed...
I smile. How lucky I am to be alive, have energy, to be healthy...
We are staying at the Marriot. The room is a mess. I've been lazy. In two days I'll be flying out to Chicago. I've never been. I'll spend a week there, then a week at home.
Happy happy holidays!

2:27 PM - Friday, Dec. 16, 2005
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