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Hi loyal Gwen fans!

It's Lisa writing, since Gwen has no access to the internet while she is in treatment... I got to visit her Sunday evening and she kept saying how she is feeling so much better... physically for certain, and emotionally too.

She describes laughing "for real" in this past first week of her treatment. She is hating the "rebound edema from hell" that she knows is part of the deal that she has to go through to pull her body out of the nightmare it has been in. They take her vitals and do a urinalysis every day because her kidneys are shot... the damage is still being determined. Her vision is pretty bad, I think she's trying to hide how much that bothers her (just my opinion). Ironically, her eyes look beautiful to me because there is LIFE in them.

Naturally, she has some complaints about treatment (no outings, no sweets, has to get up so early for her medical tests... just before 5am! poor thing). But she gets along well with her roommate and she had a good phone call with her Mom. Most significantly, she is feeling 100% (more like 500%) better. It had gotten real real real f'ing bad (as you all know).

She's worried about her weight changing. Though I understand from an eating disorder point of view - I want to scream because she is so beautiful and so loved and so lovely and no one (but her) freaking cares about her weight! Not even in the tiniest way!!! (sigh.)

Anyway, she probably didn't want me to ramble so much (sorry!). But she did want me to tell everyone that she is feeling better, that she wants all of YOU to be well and take care of yourselves... and she sends her love.

I send my love, too. Cheers, Lisa

P.S. She would love visitors (call her cell if you want to know visiting hours, Rader does not have accurate ones posted on their website). photo: http://dimstar.diaryland.com/images/megwennie-rader.jpg

2:12 AM - Monday, Sept. 12, 2005
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