But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast.

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A Last Entry

So... I'm awake because I had a nightmare about zombies. I'm leaving in four hours and I'm awake! Arrgh!
I had a lovely day. I hung out with Aut, my favorite person in this shitty town. We went and I got my eyebrow pierced as well as another one in my ear. The man who does the tattoos accidentally locked us in when he left and Aut, the piercer, and I stood around smoking until the piercer could have his mother bring his extra set of keys.
I didn't purge today. I still ran my sugars high. I still took ephedra...
I don't want to leave Aut. I want to pack her up and take her with me. She walked into my room and lightly grabbed my ankle to wake me. I was so pleased. It lightened my spirits considerably.
I'm sitting here eating my 10th bag of Nabisco Oreo crackers. Why can't I stop?
I weighed 96 pounds this morning and it wasn't enough.
I'm going to be at Rader tomorrow. I'm scared.
This is the address:
http://www.raderprograms.com/location.htm
(Now I can't get in direct trouble for giving it out)
Take care everyone. I believe in all of your strength and abilities.
I'm exhausted. Im burping dinner up. I'm nauseous, and I'm off to bed.
Night

2:32 AM - Monday, Sept. 05, 2005
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