Fight Until You Can't

But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast.

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A Better Day

I did better today. I slept mostly, ate quite a few sweets, but not nearly as much as I have been. All in all I didn't eat more than 2,300 calories which is good for me lately and I didn't start obsessively stepping on the scale until later in the day.
I woke up and a dear friend told me her sister was listening to Backstreet Boys and driving her insane. I decided to put it on just for old times sake and it brought me back to when things were better. Before I got drunk, ruined my reputation, before all the hospitalizations and medical complications. I found my mind drifting back to sixth grade, recieving awards for being gifted and teacher's pet while remaining popular... I can't write any more about it. It reminds me of the potential I flushed away.
But the music made today better. And today is July 1st. Soon Claire will be here. Soon we will be having a lovely vacation and I will be able to lock this monster in a closet.

Me, right after I woke up. No make-up, so I look not the best, but I'm smiling!