But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Really Scared Tongue coated in glucose, nausea incapacitating every part of this body... Its my own fault. No body could withstand the way I ate today, especially no diabetic body. Chocolate evaporated milk whipped in cream cheese, cinnamon graham crackers..etc... each can of evaporated milk has 350 grams of carbohydrate. I silently said murder by swallowing them, by following them with more carbs... And there were more. Finally at dinner time I truly went insane, deciding that I needed a real binge. A pound of turkey with a can of sloppy joe sauce, a super tortilla, cheese, hamburger bun, two liters milk, another can condensed milk, quarter pan brownies, 2 packages graham crackers, low carb bar, etc... Too many things to recall. And afterwards I purged in my room in the file box at the end of my bed. The walls are thin in my house. I know someone could hear me. I didn't even care. 4:23 AM - Tuesday, Jun. 28, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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