But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Normalcy Gone I'm doing it again. Running sugars so high the meter cannot read them, drowning in my own glucoses, waking every few hours to consume liters of diet soda... And I am exhausted. I know if anything kills me it will be the high sugars. They are, by far, the most dangerous thing I do in my eating disorder. Food wrappers are stuffed in a trash bag next to my bed. Only last night I consumed three Reese's Fastbreaks, two bags of chocolate covered pretzels, and two packages of donut sticks. Only I don't truly eat the whole donut stick or pretzel. I take off the icing and toss the rest away. "Sick sick girl," I think, "You disgust me." 11:55 AM - Sunday, Jun. 26, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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