But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast.
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Ethics and Such
My English report is suppossed to be on "The Ethics of Embryonic Stem-Cell Research." Earlier I wrote a paper supporting embryonic stem-cell research, since at this point it is the only thing that has shown any hope for diseases such as diabetes and Parkinson's, but ultimately something inside of me said it wasn't quite ethical. Currently I am reading, "Racial Hygiene, Medicine Under the Nazis", a book by Robert N. Proctor. It discusses the steps taken to "purify" the Aryan race any hereditary diseases before World War II broke out. In the beginning, the insane and feeble-minded were sterilized. Later, they were "euthanized". This soon led to everyone with a deformality being killed in inhumane ways if they were costing the German government anything. And where did they take many of their lessons from?
The United States, of course. The United States, which sterilized American indians on reservations, the mentally handicapped, mentally ill...etc... and doctors in the US who wrote papers on the need to rid the world of these people.
These people called for a world free of sickness. In the beginning, they were unethical in how they went about it. Later, they were inhumane. Though embryonic stem-cell research is a good idea and I myself like the idea of it, I can't help the feeling that it would ultimately lead to bigger things, such as blaming the ill for their illnesses, or expecting them to get a transplant....
I don't know.....
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In other news, I slept nearly the whole day, as I tend to do after crashing off of diet pills. The weather was extremely hot, well into the 80's, so I turned on the air conditioner, not caring if my other roommate protested. Thankfully she didn't, and I was able to go back to sleep.
I also ended up eating five candy bars, bringing me to a total of 1,500 calories today. Surpisingly, I don't really care. I know it is better than taking diet pills for days in a row, and ultimately a part of me doesn't even want to be on this diet in fear that I will become obsessed and lose too much weight or start to binge and purge. So to show that I can eat five candy bars without purging is fine by me.
Ultimately though, summer is coming and letting my weight go up to 124... Egh... I'm just under 5'3. Its not like I am slipping into an eating disorder by restricting my calories to lose some weight so I can feel okay in short sleeve shirts and skirts or shorts that the 100+ temperatures are going to force me to wear.
I hope that I am not just telling myself this... I just want to be healthy, happy, and productive.
It would be so much easier if I was a mind without a physical body. If I lacked any physical sense at all...
I guess in this reality that would make me a ghost. And no one would believe in a ghost.
6:38 PM - Friday, Mar. 11, 2005
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