But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Trying I don't know what makes me get up during the night and binge before I even realize I am awake, but I must figure this out. It is very scary and frustrating. I am trying very hard not to walk into the kitchen and binge right now, even though my hands feel like they are going to fly off my wrists and grab every sweet food in sight if I don't walk in there. But I can't. I had a healthy lunch. A can of tuna with lettuce and two pieces of wheat bread. That is enough. I don't need to scarf down 15,000 calories to satisfy my mind for five minutes, to make me feel terrible for hours afterwards. I woke up with terrible leg cramps, and, coincidentally, the nurse from my doctor's office called and said they want a potassium draw next week. Funny how things work sometimes. And tonight I start my Psych class. I wonder how much I will already know from years of being the patient ;) Claire, I am so proud of you... 2:40 a.m. - 2004-01-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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