But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- O Insulin, Why Do I Loathe Thee? Shit I feel like shit. There is no other way to describe it. I got scared because my friend from IP is coming to visit me today, so I ended up bingeing during the night. Bingeing and skipping my insulin. I could smell the sugar wafting off of my urine, feel the stickiness of it each time I had to go to the bathroom. It is sick. Like fermented fruit. I cannot stand the smell. It is nauseating. I drank 15 Diet Cokes last night, along with two liters of water. My meter read "HI" all through the night. Sometimes I fear that I will die when I do this. Sleep consists of uncomfortable 15 minute intervals before I have to wake up and go to the restroom again, or get something else to drink. I cannot take it any longer. The good news? I took my insulin. The bad news? I feel drained of energy, and nauseous as all hell. I also lost a pound, but is it really worth it?
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