But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sorry, Was In Hospital I am sorry I haven't updated in a while. I spent six days in the hospital. I didn't think it was possible, but I gained 24 pounds in six days. You heard right, 24 pounds. I am so unhappy right now, I want to curl up in a ball and never see the world again. The doctor I now have to see for my diabetes uses the old method, so I am supposed to eat the same thing every day, at every meal, and have six meals a day. Yea, right. I am going straight back to what I was doing. I hate him. He put me on a very high calorie diet and then he didn't even weigh me. 24 pounds in six days is dangerous. No wonder my blood pressure went so low. This morning it was 74/40. I know it is because I gained so much weight. Thank God I am out of there. Apparently when I went in on Monday I was much sicker than anyone thought. My labs were all off and everyone said I looked "skeletal." Now they say I look good. Ugh... I look fat is what they mean. I am so upset right now. I have never gained that much weight in less then a week. Death would have been better. Next time I will chance it over going back to a hospital where they don't even treat eating disorders yet put you on weight gain without weighing you or consulting an ed specialist. So fat, I never want to see the world again, leaving for residential in a week, what shall I do? Life sucks and then you die. 1:02 a.m. - 2003-05-04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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