But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Breaking the Plateau I finally broke my plateau. My weight was 93.5 this morning. I payed dearly for it though. I couldn't crawl out of bed until 2:00pm. Every time I got up my legs became butter and the world a merry-go-round. Even then I had to force myself to get up. Why is losing weight so hard? My mom was very worried. She said that I looked really sick. I knew I had to get up. I had homework. Stephanie was coming over at 7:00pm. My evening turned out to be a blast. I felt much better by the end of the day, though I still hadn't eaten a thing. We decided to go out to the Santa Fe Grill. We both ordered grilled chicken salads, mine without the cheese. I was so scared that I had no appetite, but I managed to eat mine. It is amazing that I can binge on something that has 5,000 calories as long as the nutrition facts are listed, but I am scared to death of anything without them. I won't even eat an orange if the bag doesn't list the calories. Then we went to Hollywood Video and rented our Jude Law movies. After "Road to Perdition" we were both exhausted, so she went home. I am currently awake to make sure my brother comes home safely because he snuck out. Hunger is eating me. I want to binge. I will not binge. I need to be thin. All in all, my day was good. My friends always make my world brighter. This eating disorder is not going to define whether I have a good or bad day. It will not... 12:41 a.m. - 2003-03-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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