But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Good Day I am so happy and at peace right now I could cry tears of happiness. I met this girl, Stephanie, who is in recovery from an eating disorder. We have talked a bit in the past, but never did anything together before. Tonight we went out for coffee, (yea, I know, caffeine, I only drank half) and to see "How To Lose A Guy In Ten Days." She was so easy to talk to. I can't explain it, but we just felt so at ease around each other and had so much fun. She ended up staying at my house until 1:00am and helped me clean up the kitchen, and just sat and talked. She vowed to help me get better. I swear, she is absolutely beautiful and very thin at 103 pounds and 5'3. She told me that I will look alot better and be much happier when I get better. It made me look more forward to recovery. I wanted to binge and she helped me through it. I didn't binge for the first time in four months, not counting my hospitalizations. I took all my medications and I actually feel good about it. I am sitting here drinking water and not soda. I cannot explain it guys, this person is wonderful. She said that she will help me find a boyfriend, that we will hang out with her friends, and that together we will go to med school and recover. I have hope. Someone that knows me believes in me... 1:45 a.m. - 2003-03-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
||||||