But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Almost Gone... Fear clouds my mind. I am next on the waiting list for UCLA, and could possibly be going next week. No, no, no... It is too soon. I have gained too much weight. I want to binge constantly. I don't want to give up all the good foods I like. The weight. How can I possibly go if I have gained so much weight? I spent the day sleeping and eating. I skipped my insulin until 4:30pm, when I finally gave into the high sugars and shallow breathing... Because I had to go to class... It was a sad realization that I could not take in what was being said, my body too overrun with glucose and my mind too filled with thoughts of what will become of me. I wish I knew what I wanted... I wish that I wasn't so sick all the time. I am so sick and tired of being so sick and tired... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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