But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Bingeing Without Purging Today I decided to give up. I decided that I wasn't going to purge even if I binged. That was a miserable idea. I binged a ton. I weigh ten pounds more than I did this morning. I also gained weight this morning. I stayed up last night until 4:00am bingeing and purging and finally went to bed, completely exhausted and drained. I woke up at 97 pounds. Screw life. You never win. I had a doctors appointment today. My labs were off again, suprise, suprise suprise. Then we went to my happy land, Vons. We bought three boxes of Reese's Puffs, brownie mix, frosting, animal cookies, and blueberry muffins. I binged. I still am. The burn on my arm has turned to a nasty oozing hole. I scratched it when it itched. Bad idea. My mom and brother are livid at me. I ate too much lasagna. I always mess up. I suppose that is all I have to say for now. Hopefully I will have something more interesting to say tomorrow. xoxo Gwen 10:33 p.m. - 2003-02-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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