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Mouse Infestation

Not much new is happening. Thank you everyone who has signed my guestbook or left me a note. You are all so sweet and I appreciate it dearly. My mom dragged me out of bed yesterday. She said that I had to get up. She took me on all her errands with her. For some reason just walking around a few stores drained me, and I was completely exhausted when we got home. She was extremely worried and I was extremely embarassed. At almost every store someone asked me if I was feeling okay. When we got home she told me to take a nap. I was, much to my humiliation, shaking like a leaf in the wind. I was watching a movie and just fell asleep. I never do that. That really worried her. I also set mouse traps yesterday. We have mice and lots of them. I feel like a big part of it is my fault for puking behind the pool. It probably attracts them to the house. I set eight mouse traps last night. I already caught seven mice. Three behind the cabinet, two underneath the stove, one in a cupboard, and one behind the toaster. I am so disgusted that I am seriously debating eating anything that isn't individually wrapped. The mouse trap in the stove caught two mice at once. Talk about competition over peanut butter!

I am extrememly bloated right now. My weight was 96.5. I am so disgusted with myself. I am never going to get thin. I am just a lazy, ugly, bitch. I am supposed to go to a party tomorrow, but at this rate I don't know if I can bring myself to show up. I am such a loser. What the hell am I going to do when I turn 18? I have no life skills, I might as well kill myself... There is nothing else I can do. Take care everyone.

XOXO Gwennie

12:31 p.m. - 2003-02-16
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