But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just Another Morning I called Tali last night when I realized that I wasn't going to fall back asleep. Sometimes I think that I live off in my own little world. When I speak I feel like I am leaving that world, and therefore should shut up. It was really nice to just hear another human voice at that hour, but unfortunately my brother woke up because the alarm on his cell phone went off. He thinks I woke him because I turned the alarm off and when he got up he heard my voice. He asked me what I was doing which woke my mom up, and she got pissed. This morning she said in a sweet voice to my brother, "Al, get up sweetie." Then she came to my room and banged on the door, turned on the light, and said, "Dim, get up! You woke the whole house up so you aren't sleeping all day!" I felt sick as a dog. I checked my ketone level. High. Well, at least I don't have to go to school. When am I going to quit bingeing? I feel so crappy. I go to the bathroom and step on the scale. 96.5. I gained a pound! O man. Now I could never show my face anywhere. I need some more laxatives. Laxatives. The cure all. I am beginning to welcome pain as punishment. I suppose that is about all. Another day at home for me to binge even more.... Take care everyone and have a good day. *Dimstar 6:52 a.m. - 2003-02-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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