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Inevitable

I don't even know why I bother trying. I am bingeing as we speak, right at the computer. I went all day without doing it. O well. So far I am almost done with half a box of cereal and a box of graham crackers. Every day I say I won't but I do. It nags at me. Eat! Eat! The one thing I hate to do I am also compelled to do. I am so disgusting. My therapist made a house visit today. I gave her this link. She is really nice. I also showed her how much food we have in our cupboards. I thinks she was pretty shocked. She also told me that my teachers have been calling the school nurse because they are concerned that I am "losing weight." I had to laugh at that. I have gained over ten pounds people! HELLO!!! So that was quite interesting. Ugh, the nausea from this gross binge is kicking in.... I also got a letter from Lisa, who I adore. She suggested that I send in some of the things I wrote to a talkshow because they have never covered diabetes and eating disorders. I will have to think about it... I would love to but the idea of everyone knowing my not so secret "secret" scares me. I guess that is all for now. Your royal fat ass friend dim signing off to pig out and watch TV while doing it will probably add more later.

*Dimstar

4:42 p.m. - 2003-01-22
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