But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Waking Up to Binge (yea it's Hell) Okay, so my actually trying to accept bulimia lasted only about a day or so, at the most. I woke up at 4:00am in a panicky mood, starving. 4:00am! I walked out to the kitchen and finished off a whole pumkin pie, along with a huge slice of meatloaf and a ham sandwich. Lets not forget the ice cream. Then I went back to bed, thinking that I would wake up in about an hour like I usually do and puke. It didn't happen. Instead I woke up this morning looking like hell hit me and extremely bloated. Not only that, my mom told me that I am turning into a pig. It is so hard. I didn't even go to school this morning because I am so embarassed about the way I look. It is disgusting. I weighed 101 this morning. Thank God I haven't binged again. Hopefully I will be able to go out of town and meet Tali. The only thing is my mom has to be able to get into her doctor today. Pray that she does. I need to see that girl. Sorry to sound so lame, but this damned binge/purge/gorge cycle is a killer. I have to go now. Take care and God bless.
Love Dimstar 8:10 a.m. - 2003-01-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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