But The Quest for Beauty is a Beast. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Thought It Was Impossible I didn't believe it was possible...fuck. 108 pounds. 98 to 108 overnight.... And bloated as a spring pig. I was so upset and panicked that I told my mom. She insists that no matter how much I ate the majority has to be water weight. Right... And last night my blood sugar was 295 before I went to bed. When I woke up the meter read HI. Fuck! Now how in the hell did that happen? I took so much insulin yesterday, and even when I don't take insulin unless I wake up at 4:00am and binge the damned meter doesn't read HI. I quit. I don't care anymore. I don't even want to eat. The thought of all those pounds terrifies me. I am not eating a scrap of lettuce today! This is the final straw... 9:18 a.m. - 2003-01-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- |
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