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Brittany - 2006-02-19 17:03:52
I think you are beautiful. You are one of those beautiful people. And you know better than anyone perfection is unattainable. Stick with what you can do. Love what you are and all that you have become and all that you will become.
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t3g4n - 2006-02-19 19:25:30
I have been following you since at least late in '03. I have seen you go up and down. I don't know you but I find myself worried when you don't post. I may not to be able to relate to you in everyway but I know what its like to be on an emotional rollercoaster from happy to suicidal. Your doing well, you can do it. Your beautiful to me because you have been so strong through it all. Keep your chin up. t3g4n
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dana - 2006-02-19 19:41:54
a waste? a WASTE? no, gwennie, no. your life is far from that. you have done so much more than you know. you have made a difference, at the very least, in my life. you have know idea what an impact you have made. sweetie, your recovery gives me more hope than i could ever ask for. that is something that you have done. just one thing. i know you have made a difference to others - to lisa, to meredith, to jewlz, to so many people. and, gwen, you are only twenty. your life is far from over. anything but. you know as well as i do that your life is finally beginning. you have so much time to change the world, and YOU WILL. i promise you that. dont ever think you have wasted a moment of your life. you havent. everything you have gone through has gotten you to where you are now - and that is amazing.
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Thea - 2006-02-19 19:46:21
You ARE one of the beautiful people. I hope you can see that one day. Also remember that everyone feels that fear, the stony faces are a mere facade to hide the fact. Everyone is too worried about making an ass out of themselves to notice anyone else. So keep your chin up and be proud of what you have accomplished, as you know better than anyone how difficult recovery really is.
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Poolagirl - 2006-02-19 22:06:53
You are not a waste. You are a beautiful child of the Universe. Keep writing and sharing your feelings. Stay connected.
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Infinity Fye - 2006-02-20 03:42:26
YOu have to understand that the universe is in an everlasting state of equilibrium so when you try and try and try harder you must be confident that everything good is on it's way to ya, maybe they got the wrong adress or something, but be sure that it's coming. God bless.
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Sofia/demainsdeslaube : ) - 2006-02-20 16:28:19
Gwengwen...you are so much more than the "beautiful people", and it's painful that you don't see that. Look at what you're doing! I don't know that people not trying to recover from an eating disorder could understand this, but this is fucking REVOLUTIONARY, to recover from this son of a bitch that had taken over your life! You are so much more special than any of them. Keep your chin up, walk with purpose, and be Gwen. Doing what you are doing is amazing, and I love you for it. Stay strong, girl. You're such an amazing person, so special, you are wonderful.
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victoria - 2006-02-20 22:39:20
Gwen, when you indulge in negative self-talk, you're practicing your disease. Even if you're not omitting your insulin, starving, or purging, you're practicing your disease when you tell yourself that you're worthless, less than everyone else, etc. Part of choosing recovery is realizing that you're a normal person, just as limited and imperfect as everyone else, but no more so. When you start to obsess over how you've let everyone down, make the conscious choice to think about (or do) something else.
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Volatile - 2006-02-21 05:19:57
I envy your self lothing. It may sound weird but i have found my self in a comfertable state of stagnation and wish i could feel again. Misery is beautiful because it transforms and changes then now into the futuer of something diffrent. Know that u r moving just by feeling and that is change. I wonder if a bud feels the way we do just before it blooms. But ofcourse in its glorry its death is soon to come. I've come to love buds more than the flower and i've seem to have found a bud in your post.
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