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Lisa - 2005-08-30 05:02:25
Goddess Gwennie ~ No one will tell you that it is okay to give up because WE recognize your WORTH. WE know that we LOVE you. WE want you to stick around. Perhaps we are selfish. But WE have all struggled too and had to rely on YOUR strength and support. Now just happens to be your turn to rely on US. And I've also seen you get better from what seemed like impossibly sick sickness... I've seen you come back from near death and pull through and I've seen you look back in surprise that you made it, but you were GLAD you made it. You have always been HAPPY when you pull out of the eating disorder/diabetic hell hole. You have never said to me that you have regretted those times, you've never regretted pulling out of the eating disorder and diabetic clutches... You've always talked like you were HAPPY to be FREE from feeling SO SO SICK. So I am here to remind you of those times, because you CAN do it again. Just get yourself somewhere - treatment, hospital - where experts can take over the management of your physical health and help you feel better. They can be supportive too, take care of you, and you can reflect on all of this. You could lie to Strober, say you have a place in L.A., and get yourself to UCLA for real help. There is ALWAYS hope, Gwennie. And I am pouring over in hope for you!!! All My Love, Lisa
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Andra - 2005-08-30 09:13:45
I think you should think positive and try to feel alive and better. Everyone has down moments and we all struggle and it is all about keeping your head up and smiling for what you do have.
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Jewlz - 2005-08-30 10:50:07
sorry I wasn't on this morning. I will call you later today. Hopefully you are feeling better and able to rest some. Gwennie, like Lisa said, no one will ever tell you it is OK to give up. I know it is hard, and I know many of us have wished and asked for the same thing...but in the end, Gwennie, it is so much better. It can get better and it will. We've just gotta find the right place, the right people...and you've gotta find that little glimmer of strength (which I know you have) in you to hold on and keep fighting. Gwennie, you can be damn stubborn sometime (hey, I am too :) ) ...so use that stuborness to fight this. I know easier said than done...but Gwennie, I am here...Lisa is here...and so many others to support you. Soon, Gwennie...soon.
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Kris - 2005-08-30 11:31:03
Like Lisa said, you cannot give up!! You have so many hopes with your school and I remember you wanting to do volunteer work... all things that you would need to be strong and healthy to do. You just have to keep pushing onward for those things, for whatever you want to do with your life, and eventually, for yourself. It's amazing the strength that you have, and it's amazing how much being strong through times like this will help you later down the road. They say "No pain, no gain." And no matter how much anyone argues against that, I think it is true because what you don't gain physically you gain mentally -- strength. I can tell you that right now I have put myself up against some crazy odds with school and running, and I don't think I would have been strong enough to make it through this before -- but now maybe I can. You can use whatever strength you have gained and one day you will make it through this and realize just how strong you have become. Don't give up Gwen, you're too good to give into something like this. As always, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. ~luvs~
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eva - 2005-08-30 13:56:03
it's not ok to give up. you must fight. you must get past this. your life is worth living. even if you gain weight. you have to want to get better. you have to want to fight. please do this.
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dana - 2005-08-30 15:17:54
we will not give up on you - never. lisa is right, things can get better, they have before. and think about how much HAPPIER you were when you were in a better place. you can have that again, i know it. please, please, please, get yourself some help - not because i dont believe you can get better, but because it is so much easier when someone helps you take the first steps. the first step, or rather, the first bite, is the hardest, and i know you can beat this. please dont give up on yourself, and please try to find some help. lots of love, dana
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Caroline - 2005-08-30 19:41:57
Dear Gwen, I'm sorry I haven't been in touch for a while. I just wanted to say, please don't give up. Too many people would miss you if you weren't here. If you are able, you should really check yourself into a hospital. From what I have read, you are not getting the support you need at home. And remember, you are NOT a failure. I know I have said this before, but no one would call you weak if or blame you if you had something like cancer. It's not your fault that your sick or that you have gotten sicker. You have a disease, and the bravest thing you can do for yourself now is get some kind of medical help. Please be well. Caroline
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Sarah - 2005-08-30 22:04:15
Oh hunny no one is going to tell you that it is alright to give up. I will tell you that i know what you are going through with the binging/purging. I think of it as being addictive, it's like a person who smokes. I think of it as you have to want it more than anything in the whole wide world and you have to have people around you 24/7 to help keep you on track. I know that i could have never stopped b/ping expect i had my boyfriend around me at all times and there were moments where he had to hold me down as i was screaming and crying just so that i couldnt purge. It takes VERY VERY hard work and i would say that in the end it is worth the recovery, but i havent discovered that part of recovery yet. Stay Strong Hun!!!
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