Comments:

Bonnie - 2005-06-24 10:23:23
Oh Gwen, Dear Gwen, this is not working for you at all. I commend you stopping the diet pills. But your sugars are so out of whack that I really think you need to visit the ER or perhaps go inpatient for a few days to level out your sugars. I know that's the last thing you want to do, but I really think you need more help than you can give yourself, or than your family can give you at the moment. Your mother is not helping you by keeping so much food around that isn't good for your diabetes. Your brother is not helping you by bringing around pills. Sometimes I wish that I can scoop you up and deliver you to a place that's better for you. I will keep praying for you, Gwen. I hope that you will continue to find strength. I wish that your focus was on controlling your diabetes at the moment and not the ED. I know they are irreparably intertwined but there's gotta be a better way. Hopefully we can all find it together. Take Care XXXOOO Bonnie
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sharla - 2005-06-24 22:49:32
i have never left you a not here! i dont know why, guess i stay with what i know. just like you do. i hope you find a middle ground with your eating and insuline. if only you could find a comfortable balance where you wont loose or gain weight. perfect right? but how hard it is to get there. love you so much hun. i hope you get to feeling better. xo sharla
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Laura - 2005-06-25 10:22:46
Hi Gwen, I hate that you are in that toxic environment. Can you establish some separation by detoxing your OWN system? I know that is simplistic. But you have no power over what your mom and brother are doing, only over your own actions. I hope you can get away from that madness for a while today and take care of you! The high blood sugars only keep you stuck in the house and feeling even worse. Find an escape, even if in a good book :) I love you, Laura
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Bohun - 2005-06-25 15:11:43
I know what you mean. I deal with my mother's drug everyday and it's hard to see them as a parent when you know they're barely able to deal with themselves let alone you. You want to help them and heal them but your the child and your hands are tied. I also agree ten fold about escapism. Somedays I need hunger pains because when my insides are scream I don't hear her screaming or anyone bitching and I don't smell the drugs...I just am. It's like a sensory deprivation tank where all I feel is my stomache and that is safe.
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