Comments:

Bonnie - 2005-05-22 23:20:21
Dear Gwen, It's okay to be angry; it's better to feel SOMETHING than nothing at all. I'm sorry that your aunt and the rest of your family have been giving you a hard time. It seems that they really have no idea what you're suffering. I can't even begin to imagine and I don't want to pretend that I do. What are you angry about? I know the aunt has been acting like a pissant and you've got to deal with this moving thing but a few days ago there was so much hope in you and now it seems to be gone. What has changed so drastically? I wish I could understand more so that I could give some advice, or at least a hug, or just be quiet and let you rail in a tempest and torrent against the world, sturm und drang, but keep you from hurting yourself. Please don't hurt yourself. Please ONLY take the meds you need to take, and not more. Please, Gwen, we're all counting on you, (yes we are!) please be strong and believe in yourself.
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Angela - 2005-05-23 01:39:08
I wish there was a way I could give you a great big hug and tell you everything will be ok. It's a cruel world out there, the only way to get through it is together. Even if your family doesn't seem to care, I care about you, a lot of people who are reading your daily struggles want to reach out to you, remember that. You are loved, even if its by people who have never even met you, because everyone who has ever read this entry knows that they are not the only one's going through unspeakable hardships. When you overcome them, it gives others hope that they too, can overcome. I believe in you, I know you will make it through the storms of life, and come out shining....
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Jared - 2005-05-23 05:23:56
God, sorry I have been awol for a few days. Things are going so great huh? Yeah I guess we both know how that goes. Your still combing home for a while right? We need to hang out and watch some movies or something. I just remembered that time I was sitting on your moms bed speaking German with her. Remember that when we were working on that paper? Yea Yea College sucks. ;P Those times back in HS. Man things have changed we have gotten old! I am turning twenty-one this summer. How scary is that? That means we have known each other for like what three four years now? It does not seem like it has been that long. Remember that time in ethics when the teach (name with-held) started ranting about how I needed to go to south America and be like Che, man talk about making a guy uncomfortable. I think it was that class and my never going that made me such the philosopher. I know I suck but I get to keep my delusions of grandeur. I finally got better and those symptoms stopped so I did not go get tested. You cant make me neen-er neen-er =P I am gonna be calling you soon so pay attention to the ringer on your phone. Peace Love �strange dreams� and good vibrations. NOT LIKE THAT YOU PERVE! Well maybe like that. *Mwah* love ya
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Jewlz - 2005-05-23 06:13:37
gwenie, I am sorry about earlier. I am just trying to avoid any and all forms of conflict right now--I do not handle conflict well at all (everyone should know this by now). I am sorry if I upset you, it was not my intention. I care about you and am worried. I still hope you come down next week. I hope that you will at least think about staying with me for a night or two--I will talk to my parents, and if they say yes, you can decide. On wednesday, if Sarah can get off work, we are going to go into downtown LA and go shopping at the alley..if you come down, I want you to come with us. I can pick you up. Then I am going to try and make it over to whittier to visit Anna (she asked how you were and said to say hi!) around 1/2pm. If I can, I want/need to drop a letter off at CFD in whittier for Dr. Brown, Jerry and Robbin..since it is like a street over from Anna's work. That is the plan, and I hope you are around for it because the day will be so much fun! Oh..sarah is in line for an all-exclusive photo shoot by yours truely.. (but you are still first in line, hehe!). Again, I am sorry for earlier, I hope you forgive me and aren't too mad at me! I can't wait to see you--whenever you make it down. I will talk to you tomorrow...well, I guess it would be later today? xoxo
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Claire - 2005-05-23 12:29:56
Gwen, i love you, i can say no more than that. Please hold on, we will get through this together. xxxxxxxxx
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laura - 2005-05-23 12:52:03
Gwen, I get really angry too, in reading how your family treats you. It is SO not you. I feel equally happy, though, in reading the responses you get from other "diarylanders". You are so loved. I hope one day when your aunt treats you so cruelly you just feel sorry for her. She sounds like a person who lacks a lot, including maturity. Can you find a cool sprinkler, or pool to hang out by today? Big hugs to you today as always. xo, Laura
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